INSOMNIAC

couldn't sleep last night.

but for the first time in several months, it was 'good' sleeplessness vs the 'bad' sleeplessness which hounded me some time back.

you know that feeling when your brain feels as if it's on fire? when current/future events, ideas, and possibilities converge and diverge and converge; when your mind feels like a washing machine and just churns and churns and churns. call me crazy (i'm used to it), but i get that once in a while. i haven't had that in a long time; and in a good and bad way, i'm just happy that i did.

i guess it's because things are slowly, ever so slowly, falling into place. the present is opening up, and the future is now not only imaginable; it's becoming more and more worth going for.

---

"You know I used to think the future was solid or fixed, something you inherited like an old building that you move into when the previous generation moves out or gets chased out. But it's not. The future is not fixed, it's fluid. You can build your own building, or hut or condo, whatever; But my point is that the world is more malleable than you think, and it's waiting for you to hammer it into shape. " - Bono, "Because We Can, We Must" (for the full text : http://www.upenn.edu/almanac/between/2004/commence-b.html)